Chapter 1
Beliefs
Darling, you feel heavy because you are too full of truth.
Open your mouth more, let the truth exist, somewhere other than your body.
- Della Hicks-Wilson
Your first assignment is to rest, reflect and receive…
As we sit in these last days before the equinox, this is an invitation to take time to reflect, rest and receive, that is all, until out first live call.
This will prepare you, for when we meet to collage with the subconscious.
I have created this guided visualisation, to encourage you to cultivate a state of trust, guidance to weave a golden web of gratitude and to allow you to rest in the plump abundance of the present moment you can create at any time.
From this place of bounty you are invited to see how far you have come, bless your journey so far and begin to softly visualise what it is you are wanting to birth in these next 12 months.
Take time to create a sacred space in your living room or bedroom.
Light candles, scent the space with herbs or essential oils, create a nest and receive this guided visualisation.
There are journal prompts for you to reflect on after the visualisation.
HERE is a super soothing playlist for you to enjoy before during or after the visualisation.
Enjoy!
With Love Sophia
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This visualisation will take about 40 minutes from start to finish.
Give yourself some liminal time to gently come out of the visualisation, the journalling prompts are here for you to go deeper with your reflections.
Create your space, grab some pillows and press play.
Here are some prompts to go deeper in to your desire scape.
Bring these journalling notes to the first session live call as we will use these to build on visually.
Solar Self Touch
This is a gorgeous practice to recharge and receive. Find a spot of sunshine and some bare skin, ground down and then create a circuit of breath within your body and charge your system with solar powered pleasure. There is a guided session in the audio below and the video is an illustration of me moving through the breath and touch session.
You are in control, take this at your own pace. All of these exercises are an invitation. Welcome what emotions comes, everything is welcome.
HERE is some delicious sound to enjoy if you want a sonic sensation too.
Rise and shine…
Optional Affirmations
This is here for you to receive, these are a guide and if you feel inspired to record your own aligned affirmations, go ahead and savour celebrating yourself.
Call One - Collage With the Subconscious
Call time 2.5 hrs - Take breaks, hydrate and move your body while you watch.
If you could not be with us, here is the first call.
For this you will need some space to move, materials to collage, paper, magazines, glue scissors and any mark making materials you want to work with.
Have fun!
Session 2 - Beliefs and Desire with Darshna Parmar
Call time 1.5 hours
Have a journal with you, some water and some space to move.
Join us in some embodiment to ground in to the space, a guided visualisation to explore your personal desire-scape and then a guided meditation to connect you with your arousal point with Darshna Parmar of The Conscious Womb Birthing School
Move, hydrate and take breaks through this session, and hydrate afterwards.
Pay attention to dreams after this meditation. If you are watching the replay, journal what came up for you in the visualisation and the meditation.
What did your desire scape look like?
What was the souvenir you brought back
What did each nodal point feel like in Darshna’s meditation?
What emotions did you feel?
You can follow more of Darshna’s work on Instagram at @consciouswomb
Here is a PDF Darshna has created that explains the Nodal points that you activated within the meditation.
You can download to understand the theory behind this practice.
Below is an audio file of this meditation so you can tune in to your arousal point throughout this course to connect energetically to your Kundalini, creation energy from your own rooted power.
Your Saboteur Ritual
You will need…
As we close out this first chapter of BELIEFS this ritual is an honouring of your saboteur, and an opportunity to embody and reclaim the energy of resistance that is stored within this thought form. This ritual is an opportunity to FEEL all the associated emotions to do with this aspect of your psyche, you can embody and move through these sensations and cleanse, vocalise and release any pent up frustration, and soothe your body with pleasure afterwards.
The ritual itself is just over 30 minutes, I would recommend taking at least 15 minutes afterwards to integrate and journal to catch any reflections and approach the journalling questions below.
Once you are done with the ritual take the pieces of your saboteur collage outside and in a safe way burn them.
Pay attention to your dreams in the following days.
Wishing you a bright and energetic week and New Moon in Aries.
See you all on the 15th as we move deeper in to our experience of the body!
The recording has an introduction of 4.30 minutes - Then the ritual begins, line up your music to begin at the same time as the ritual, and enjoy!
Here is your soundscape to support this ritual.
Four candles
Your two collages
A journal for after the ritual
A room and some privacy
Some integration time after the ritual
Journalling for After the Ritual
Some sounds for you to sit with while you write…x
I am honouring my desires when…
I am honouring my saboteur when…
Note down behaviours and habits that serve both your desires and your saboteur.
How does your desire serve you?How does your desire serve others?
Own the selfishness of your wanting, celebrate how through wanting what you want it fills you up. Then how does that spill out to others through how you can serve from your fullness?
Celebrate your selfishness and much as your service!
Create an Altar to Your Desires….and speak them clearly every day.
Create a space where you can place your talisman of desire, dress it with flowers, objects that symbolise sensuality, abundance and the things you are wanting to grow. Then speak your desires in this place daily.
Optional Practice
Deepest Fear Inventory.
This is taken from Carolyn Elliot’s amazing book “Existential Kink” it is an amazing journey of shadow work and I highly recommend it and Carolyn’s teachings.
This exercise helps you to exercise your deepest fears you can do this around intimacy, erotic expression, stepping in to your soul path what ever fear you want to clear and just get bored of how repetitive and annoying they are. This will help to shift the charge they hold so you can release and break through them.
Give it a try, see what emerges from the depths.
Here is is your pleasure practice to nourish, tend and nurture yourself.
This is a ritual of bathing, self touch and self tending. If you feel far from your turn on this is a way to reconnect with your body, enjoy sensation based and slow touch. This can hold space for the emotion that may be calling to be felt, without judgement. Doing this in the bath helps us to feel supported and you can ask the water to wash any heavy emotion away.
Chapter 2
The Body
“I touch my own skin and it tells me that before there was any harm there was a miracle.”
— Adrienne Maree Brown
Self Seduction Ritual
Thursday15th 6-8.00pm - Zoom Link
Passcode: f36RXb
Meeting ID: 619 489 2120
What you will need for the session…
A small bowl of natural oil with some essential oil within
Four small candles (tea lights are ideal)
A pot of herbal tea and a sweet treat for after the ritual
Your Journal to catch reflections and write on your experience, I will be guiding you through some journalling.
Space to move, and private and a speaker for sound
Blankets and cushions to rest with afterwards
Some integration time for after the session
I invite you to dress in a way that makes you feel sensual, and powerful, adorn your body in a way that celebrates your form and feeling of empowered sensuality.
This ritual is designed to welcome in your eros, to create communication and conversation between your visualisation, imagination and to ground it through your body.
Ritual has been used for centuries to move through, honour and create altered states that can transition and transform us, it is something we have forgotten and this ritual is created to help you Remember the power of your body as a tool for expression and creation.
This is an opportunity for you to travel through different emotional states connected to your sensual expression.
Parts of us can get left behind, after traumatic events, relationship breakdowns or simply over time we can clarify, shut out and block our true nature.
Ritual is a space for you to commune with different aspects of your sensual nature and celebrate these wild and wonderful parts of your soul.
Embodiment rituals are a way to reconnect and energise your psyche and physical body with the elixir of your unique eros, your life force.
This practice was learned through and inspired by a dear teacher and guide of mine Melissa Tofton.
Your Pleasure Practice
Sensual Embodiment
To echo the Ritual I encourage you to commit to a daily embodiment practice.
We are taught to be in our bodies in structured ways, through sport, and specified leisure activities, but letting our bodies guide us to how they want to be moved is a way to come home to the natural capacity our body has to translate and express emotion and deepens how we connect to our senses. Embodiment helps us inhabit the full intelligence of our consciousness and marries it with the body.
There are so many gifts we can receive when we begin to engage with our bodies in a way that is without rules, and invites our bodies to process and enjoy the pure “is-ness” of our being. Embodiment practices help to connect us to our flow and our aliveness in the moment. When we move and let our bodies guide us, the fascia of the body helps to release stored emotion, it is a powerful way to process emotions, and creates a way for us to express emotion without attaching it to an external source. We can simple express without attaching to outcomes, or reactions and clear space for more vitality and presence through this practice.
This is sensual embodiment is an empowering practice to enjoy and deepen the awareness of the senses and emotional connection to your body.
I suggest ten minutes each day as this is manageable to start with and build up to a longer session of 30 minutes.
You can go deeper the longer you move in to the practice, you can also try it with a blind fold and with eyes closed vs open. You can also watch yourself in a mirror, use this as foreplay for self pleasure, experiment and make it your own!
Let the music move you and connect with sensation, breath and flow, simply become the body and breath, allow yourself to FEEL.
Circuit Breath
Listen to this guide to familiarise yourself with the circuit breath which will support you through the sensual embodiment practice. The breath roots you and is a channel to move through emotional release.
The Main Pillars of Embodiment
Breath
Movement
Sound
Felt Sense
Relationship to yourself
The other
Embodiment breeds deeper awareness of our presence, and integrated feeling. The more we can open to our full spectrum of presence the more we can engage with ourselves, the experience of living and intimacy with others.
Session 3
Self -Seduction Ritual
Your Soundscape is HERE press play on both the soundscape and voice recording together.
HERE is more music to get you moving every day, dip in to your embodiment and give yourself ten minutes a day to DANCE!
Get our of your head and into your body, let your soul pour through you.
With Love Sophia
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Here is your ritual, I have chosen to upload just the audio so you can focus on your experience for those catching up online.
Please listen to the intro before you start the ritual.
Then press play on both the Spotify playlist and the guided ritual so you have both music and my voice to guide you through.
Take some time afterwards to integrate and journal, see the journalling prompts below for after the ritual. Take some time to rest and reflect after the session, rehydrate and move slowly in to what ever you do next.
Pay attention to your dreams in the next few days too. This work can loosen the subconscious and shift things in your dream state.
You can come back to this ritual again and again if you feel big emotions brewing and want a place where you can release and move with them.
Most of all have FUN and enjoy embodying all of your aliveness.
Journalling Prompts For After The Ritual…
My Eros is….
Free write, don’t think about it too much and let your pen reflect your heart….My eros is devotional, My Eros is oceanic, My Eros is Ancient….Let it pour out of you.
I am…
Again let it flow freely, wrote the first things that come to mind.
I am predator and prey, I a wild and untameable, I am fearful, I am bold…celebrate all you are and ground in your I AM.
Session 4 - Sensual Yoga and Heart Puja with Rosy Moon
Session time 1 hr and 30mins
Rosy takes us through some sensual yoga flow and leads us in the practice of the Heart Puja.
You will need some space to move and some natural oil for the breast massage.
Enjoy this time to connect and recognise yourself as embodiment of the Goddess.
Here is the Heart Puja as a separate audio experience if you want to come back to the practice again, the mantra is above and recording below.
Enjoy!
CHAPTER 3: BEING
Session 5 : Introduction to Erotic Self-Witness
Session Time: 1hr 30 minutes
Make tea, sit comfortably and tune in to this talk., have your journal ready at the end and to capture any ideas that surface through the session about your own creative endeavours.
Enjoy!
As we begin to spiral out how can observing ourselves assist in shifting the perceptions we hold of who we are, have been and want to become?
This practice of self witness has opened the doors to my sensual empowerment, helped me to find voice and has taken a personal practice and seeded in to my professional work.
I share with you some of my silent and historical female Mentors who have held the torch for me as I have found my way creating with my authentic voice.
What fears do I have around being seen?
Journalling for after the presentation.
When you think of being seen, in your sensuality, in your creative power, expressing your authentic self, what comes up?
What judgments are lodged in your inner dialogue?
Where do they come from?
Are they true?
What would I do if those fears did not have power over me?
Dip in to your audacious dreams, what would you share, what would you do, what would you say if fear was not a factor?
How could you be more fully expressed?
How could you use your voice and vision if you melted the fear that stands in your way?
Connect and Tend - Pleasure Practice
A song to remind you of your bounty, bliss and beauty each morning, press play… x
I encourage you to tap in to this frequently, tune in to your body through heart and vulva. Slow down, breathe feel and dialogue with your body. Making space to listen, clear and receive your touch without the expectation to orgasm can help to it can help to draw out and clear stagnant emotions held in both the heart and vulva and rei-mprint with deep loving touch through your hands.
You can do this at the start of the day, before bed or at any time you want to drop in, connect deeply and hold your body and connect.
The practice takes approx 15 minutes, you can adapt to suit you, the power is in your hands.
“Nude With Lens” - 2019
It is time to see yourself clearly…
Your Guide to Erotic Self Witness
To create your sacred space you will need
A large mirror
Space to yourself
Warmth
One lamp to create directional light if you wish
A soundtrack to suit your mood - ( I want you to source and create sounds that reflect a soundtrack to your sensuality)
A camera or phone on self timer mode
A tripod or way of fixing your camera to the right height
Candles, herbs and any adornment to enhance your expression
Sonic Support for Erotic Self- Witness
Here is a sonic tune in for you to listen to before you step into your Erotic Self Witness session.
Enjoy you beautiful and brave soul, I see you!
Supported Self - Pleasure With Andrea Balboni
Session Time approx 2 hrs
Set yourself up for pleasure you are invited to create a sacred a[ace for your pleasure, make sure your space is warm and you have some privacy.
Put pillows down, surround yourself with flowers light candles, scent your space, let yourself be surrounded by beauty.
You are also invited to support each of your senses and bring your journal.
For the five senses play you will need…
Touch - Wear clothing that feels good or find a feather or object to play with on your skin.
Taste - Bring a treat, something delicious to savour in the senses play.
Vision - Make your space beautiful, flowers, tarot cards, candles.
Sound - Andrea will provide a soundscape.
Scent - Bring essential oil, or your favourite perfume.
If you are curious to explore this work deeper you can connect with Andrea at her web site Lush Coaching in the button above.
HERE is Andrea’s instagram where she shares lots of good info about her practice of helping those that desire to find LOVE that lasts.
Closing Circle and Quantum Flow with Pandora Paloma.
Session time: Approx 1hr 30
Have you journals ready, and some space to move.
Celebrate how far you have come and let’s tap in to abundance of all kinds as we all spiral out from here!
Celebrating each and every one of you in your unique expression.
Thank you for joining me on this journey, it has been an honour to be in circle with you all.
All content will be up for another month for you to enjoy!
With So much love Sophia x
Journal Prompts for the start of the Session.
What tangible 3 actions do you commit to in order to support your spiral out?
What beliefs do you want to leave behind?
How will you make space to reeve more pleasure in your even day life?
Who are you now you have learnt the Art of self seduction? (Answer in the I am…)
An Erotic Library
Books I Recommend
Women Who Run With The Wolves
Dr. Clarissa Pinkola Estes
If you have not already read this, it is like a mystical guide to connecting to how ancient your woman really is. If you ever feel far from yourself this collection of tales will lead you back to yourself.
The Art of the Erotic
Phaidon - Forward by Rowan Pelling
Stunning coffee table book that looks at Art of the Erotic Through the ages.
Existential Kink
Carolyn Elliot
A potent and practical guide to shadow integration, a witchy manual for soul alchemy of the highest order.
Pussy - A Reclamation
Regina Thomashauer - aka Mama Gena
A bright and inspiring story of a woman’s journey back to her pleasure and power.
Lighthearted with so much juice this is a gem to have on your bedside table.
The Masters Tools Will Not Dismantle The Masters House
Audrey Lorde
A collection of powerful essays that ring true today as they did when she wrote them in the 1970’s. Her essay “The Uses of The Erotic"‘ is necessary reading from everywoman.
Unbound
Kasia Urbaniak
A woman’s guide to power. Lessons in power influence and persuasion. Kasia Urbaniak is an ex Dominatrix who also studied with Taoist Monks, her work focuses on supporting women with power with men and money.
The Book of The Courtesan
A catalogue of their virtues - Susan Griffin
A look back through history at courageous and enchanting women who went against the grain.
Pleasure Activism
Adrienne Maree Brown
Notes on the politics of feeling good, powerful insights and reflections on race, gender, love, pleasure and a life lived through it.
You Are Not Too Much: Love Notes on Heartache, Redemption & Reclamation
Jeanette Le Blanc
An encouraging companion for women who want to live to their fullest.